Wow, i'm back at xanga. I probably will be for a short while. Myspace blogging is too out there, and here.. I feel as if not too many people can reach this. So whatev, i'll be taking it out here..

Crap is happening with my parents. I'm fighting with my bestfriend. I haven't been youth night, or any church-esque activities since last week. So a vacation is highly needed at this point. Good thing my sister is asking if I want to stay with her down in SoCal for 8 days, then come back here on the 28th. I-CAN'T-WAIT.

Ever since Friday, my dad and I have been at it. I had to stay at Raena's house/church because my mom felt as if it wasn't safe to stay with my dad at our house. I slept over my cousin's house two nights ago and i'm finally home today. Gotten too much bull these past days, and for the past 2 hours or so, i've been feeling superb. Finally taking things in as time progresses.

BUT NO. Matt, my bestfriend, had to call and lecture me as if he was my dad. Saying the same exact things and seriously, it's just too much. If i'm telling you that I NEED MY OWN SPACE to damn chill and step away from the situation and calm down, then respect that. If you can't, then whatever. You're gonna hear some nagging, whining and yelling. But I already warned you I NEED MY DOWN TIME RIGHT NOW and if you can't even step the f away and understand that, than I won't try and hear you out either.

Now, i'm aggravated and irritated and feeling f-ing down AGAIN. Thanks. No really Matt, THANKS. And comparing me to the people I dislike the most is awesome of you.

To Raena, Sasha, Raena's mom and Sasha's mom, THANK YOU. YOU GUYS HAVE UNDERSTOOD ME FROM DAY ONE AND I THANK THE LORD FOR YOU 4. Also, to the Se7en and my cousin Nikki who deals with my crap and just lets me have my way for now.. as I deal with things. Love you guys.

I'M SICK OF THE BAY. I'M SICK OF THE HOUSE. I'M SICK OF EVERYTHING AND EVERYONE UP HERE. SO I'M JUST COUNTING THE SECONDS, MINUTES AND HOURS UNTIL I'M ON THAT PLANE SUCKAS. TOODLES.

Jello! I'm in the library right now, 3rd period. Just came back from ceramics w/ Nutzo. OK, I admit, your iPod is sicker than mine. But mine's pink, soooooooooo.. aha, love you Nickan!

LATELY.. it's been rough. 3 weeks ago everything was peachy keen, but whatev, you gotta deal. Haven't seen my boys in awhile, haven't been to church (Crossroads in awhile, haven't really done that much IN A WHILE. I've been struggling with school and doing hella shit for my pageant. Had to perform for the pageant last Saturday, it went good, FINALLY met all the girls. Their so cute, and nice! Got a pre-liminary pageant tomorrow at 4 I believe? Pretty much all the contestants will be there tomorrow (Ms. RP-USA and Mr. RP-USA) since last week tons of them were at graduation. I gotta leave school early tomorrow, so I can get my el make-up o done @3, then head to Holiday Inn in SF at 4 for the pageant thingy majigg. The real deal pageant is on the 19th and it'll be at SF's Civic Center. EVERYONE, GO! It'll be tight. Big ass fiesta with hella performances and foooooooood. Other than that, i'm really looking forward to summer (STARTS IN EXACTLY ONE WEEK).

OK, gotta get going on my portfolio due tomorrow!

"You mullet."

WOW, xanga? Craaaaaaaazy, from the last time i've been on this, or even checked this, i've gone through a bit of things. Things are different, but it's cool. School's ending in 11 days? All i ever hear at school is "MEG! YOUR NOT GONNA HAVE FRIENDS NEXT YEAR." Boohoo, no seniors = no friends. Ahahaha, anyway, i can't fucking wait for summer! Ok that's all, i actually feel weird blogging.

Jennifer Sinclair, i love you!

so anyway, i know i wasn't gonna keep up with that "private" blog bull, it's just.. everything was hectic @the time, so much shit going on, and i didn't feel like putting it all online. and plus, i never have time. this is my first time going on a computer in weeks, i'm always on my kick. my days consist of school, practice, meets, church, dance practice, family time and going out with the boys.

BUT I'M BACK. aha, anyway.. backtrack on my weekend. fuck, i love weekends. Friday, school.. wow, it was weird for once. lunch? shit dude, if you know me, you know i'm rarely ever emotional. i'm always on a constant smile/laugh basis and seeing myself like that made me think "wtf?" -but things are cool now, i think? after school, Daddy picked me Raena and i up, went home. chilled, then Matt and Carlo swooped me up around 4:30, went to church. Auntie Jean wasn't even there yet, so we swooped up Roche and we went to the Taqueria to eat. went back to church, had prac, i didn't even do anything. Ricky wasn't there so i didn't have a partner. just napped, after.. i totally forgot what we did, but around 7, youth night started. it was short so it ended around 8:40. after, we all headed out to Classic Bowl, didn't even feel like bowling so we went to Lucky Chances to go eat. it was Matt, Mark, Miko, Raffy, Justin, Morris, Roche, Audrey and i, the rest were somewhere else? headed to the Saldana brothers residence (aha), chilled.. played video games and just watched TV with Matthew, around midnight, they wanted to go watch Star Wars 6, watched a little bit of it and then Matthew and i fell asleep. the rest were up watching it til hella late! Audrey, Matt and i left around 1-ish, dropped me off home then i knocked out.

Saturday, got up around 9:30, got ready, waited for Isa to get ready, picked her up then went to the Saldana's again. Matthew, Isa and i just watched WildBoyz 'til Kev came, OOPS! i woke up Miko and Morris when i was laughing in the kitchen.. ha! Kev came around 11:20, picked up Ed, then we all met up at Josh's house. chilled for a little, then we were off to the pancake house in Millbrae. we were there for hella long, couldn't decide what to do after, so we posted it for what seemed like 98490183012831 days. got picked up, went to Colma bart, we were supposed to go ice skating @Yerba Buena but i was hella tired, too much energy to go all the way downtown. so we headed to Cen20, watched AMITYVILLE again. Matthew and i just fell asleep, the whole theater was crackin' up over everything and it was irritating. HA! visited Babycakes because he was working, chilled some more then Matt picked me up. we met up with the rest of the crew at church, then we all headed to Auntie Jeans'. had prac, chilled there for hella long 'coz AGAIN we didn't know what to do, so Raf, Matt and i went to Cold Stone since Justin was working and you know what that means.. FREE ICE CREAM! chilled there for hella. right when we were supposed to leave, Jus' gayass asks us to wait for him 'til he gets off, so we did.. WASTE OF TIME damnit. so waited for him, dropped him home, then we were off to the Saldana's again, chilled.. then watched "KIDS". WOW, that movie.. if you watched it, you know what i mean. it's like a fucking porno w/ 12-15 year olds. getting seriously wasted, clubbing, perkin', all blunted and shit.. doing bad ass stuff! it was crazy. after that, the boys and i just chilled in Mark's room 'til like 2:30am i think, hella talked.. like summer days man. love those boys, my fucking bros, no lie. Matt and i left around that time then when i got home, i washed up and knocked out.

Sunday, woke up.. did the usual. got ready, went to 12:30 mass, cemetary and ate lunch @Lucky Chances. got dropped off at Crossroads, watched the boys vs. the uncles play ball in the back, then around 4:30 all of us headed to Auntie Jean's house for prac. after prac, Josh, Carlo, Chris, Mary-Grace and i went to Tapex, treated ALL OF THEM. wtf! went back to church, chilled for hella long.. went to Hawaiian Drive Inn, went back to church, then we chilled some more, then around 8:45, Uncle Rex, Warren and i left.. dropped off Uncle first, then Warren brought me home. washed up, watched Family guy and Desperate Housewives and here i am! shopping online.

Tomorrow, STAR FUCKING TESTING! oh well, it's easy. after school, Rents and i are gonna go shopping for my outfit for the performance (Auntie Jovita's 25th anni.) on Saturday and Daddy's probably gonna shop for some "pasolubong" for the fam in the P.I. since he's leaving on Tuesday. got a highlight touch-up appointment @5:15 at Structure, then after.. prolly go eat out and go home.

THAT'S ALL, this was a long ass blog. T, if you read this.. i need my digi back a.s.a.p. please!